**This clearly isn't my first rant :)**
If I can be completely honest with you I feel like I am at a complete lost for what I’m supposed to be doing. I left a full-time job working in Upper Management to work full-time on the magazine (I also think it was to focus more on my home and family) because God said so. I was excited but mainly terrified in what He was calling me to do. I knew my business wasn’t at a point where it would sustain my family financially and all of the weight would be placed on my husband and I didn’t want that. I didn’t want to put my family in a position where we would have to struggle (I’ve been doing that my whole life and am pretty much over it). But I couldn’t stand to be disobedient, so I did what God said. At first things were looking good. Someone had donated a few hundred dollars to the business, I was getting a lot of sales and new customers, companies were purchasing ad space, etc. I felt like I could finally take a breath. But in the blink of an eye that was over. Things started going downhill…and fast. I know this post doesn’t seem too encouraging, but I don’t think that people share the “in the storm” experiences until after they are over and not while they are happening. I am in the mist of “feeling” lost. I know that I am not because I am following the Lord and He is the light to my path. Though I’m not familiar with the territory that I am currently in, I know God will never leave me nor forsake me and that He has the blueprint so I’m good! I just wanted to take a moment to let you know what was going on and send some encouragement if like me, you find yourself in a place that doesn’t feel so great. We must continue to trust in God and keep our faith. The word says all we have to have is faith the size of a mustard seed. And as you can see from the picture above a mustard seed if fairly small. Be sure to comment below if you feel stressed, fed up, or like you want to quit so I can pray for/with you. And send up a prayer for me as well. As always, stay encouraged, Mz. CIU Galatians 6:9 (NIV) Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.
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Antionette Jones
8/17/2018 06:49:57 am
I am feeling that way to. I started attending a church 2 doors from my house and met people who were supposed to do a recovery house with me. I thought it was all falling in place and the lord was directing me. 2 weeks ago we come to church to hear that the pastor is being removed (he did nothing wrong), the church is basically bankrupt and the guy running the recovery house has left from under the churches authority and started his own business. This is not some small church, it is a national organization. So I went back to my cousins church where I know the doctrine is sound and where I am loved and try not to think about it. My two adult daughters have always known that the rule is there children must attend church every Sunday so I still take all 10 of my grandchildren with me to church every sunday. However my children both took a job at the eating place across the street from our other local black church where the pastor is dynamic. They however see the praise and worship team get done singing every sunday then stand outside and smoke and cuss while the pastor is in church preaching her heart out. They are so turned off by church now. Then the saints come into the place where my children work, wanting free food from a business and berate the owner who is Muslim for not honoring Gods people. I thought I would be doing so many things and I bought a new van to accommodate them and now I have a 2009 van that runs perfectly and a brand new 2018 van. Need Gods direction and need the Lords comfort. One step at a time and one day at a time God show me. Still have not finished my two books. God I trust you.
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Darnica Gordon
8/18/2018 06:56:11 am
Hello Antionette,
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ERica Day
8/17/2018 09:36:08 am
I so relate to this. This season of my life seems to be neverending. But I will still trust God.
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Darnica Gordon
8/18/2018 06:58:08 am
Hello Erica!
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Your message could not have come at a better time. This season in my life is overwhelming. I had to go back to corporate because my business was not making enough to sustain my family. Thank God for husband! My new job has stressed me to the max already and I want to quit! I know that I can't because we still have to eat. I have some many ideas for my business and it seems that the time is never right for me to bring those wonderful ideas to reality. As I tell the Lord I'm thankful for the job, I'm complaining at the same time. I know that God's got us but, sometimes it's just hard to see past the moment. I will be praying for you and I ask that you do the same for me.
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